Papa no americano

Tomorrow marks the first day of my internship!

Someone please let this phrase ring in my ears.

It's going to be okay

xx

Get me out of here now

I wish someone would share what I feel right now, I wish someone would just tell me, I know how you feel, I feel that way too sometimes. I feel so alone in this. I am feeling things that no one can understand from my point of view, no one can see it the way I do, unless you're the one standing right in my shoes. This goes beyond me telling myself that everything will eventually work out.

I am afraid my decision that might seem beneficial for the future me, but will affect the present me which inevitably affects the future me. It might be detrimental I admit, but I have this inclination to do crazy things in my life. I can't deal with a life that is contented with monotony.

Never would the me in the past make such a decision that would affect me like that. I decided to play the odds of fate. And besides, haven't you heard? Never make someone your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.

Parachute

Present day relationships in itself is an art to master. Gone are the days where it's love at first sight, and you know you're meant to be for life and the next step is marriage. In present days, a lot of factors come into play in determining the span of a relationship. Sure you can say love surpasses all and if its true love, all these are just bullshit. But with societal changes, people tend to hanker after different things with each stage of their life. I mean, people are also becoming increasingly open about relationships. Commitment becomes a thing to be toyed with. 

Present day relationships need a lot of work and attention to maintain it. It may seem tiring to outsiders, but when you're in it, it doesn't become so much of a chore. It's more like, I'm doing it because I want to, not because I have to. That's only of course if two people are in love. You need to learn how to maintain that balance in your life. Nothing teaches you more about balance than being in relationships. You tip the scale a little more towards something, you lose the other. Unless you have a superhuman partner who's doing the exact same thing, or is especially magnanimous about this. 

I am hardly worried about anything else in my life. Work worries are fleeting and superficial. Problems closer to the heart are my Achilles heel. To me it's my inner support system. It's the thing that keeps me going when the world decides to go against me, to make the tough get going. And this is what gets to me most. To me, this is the first step to success. Once you have a stable family behind you, your core support system, there is nothing you can't achieve.

Transparency

"A woman can handle almost anything if you tell her the truth about it, but if you lie to her, you will undermine her faith in herself, and ultimately her trust in you. Tell her the truth. Let her work it out. You can damage love and love will repair; but once you damage trust... you’ve got a rough road to walk. A lie needs support, but the truth stands alone."

Hold it together until you can hold it in no more.

  

Take me home

Guilty as charged for leaving this space dusty.

Too many things, too little time.

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