Christmas Whirl

Christmas 2010

  

Feel the Christmas cheer

Merry Christmas.

How time flies and we find ourselves faced with the season of giving once again. Tis the season for loving, warm meals with family, gatherings with friends. My favourite holiday of the year! However, it feels like the magic of Christmas for me always lies in the eve, and the magic simply dissipates on the day itself. Well maybe it's just my family. The air is filled with the aroma of fruit cakes and gingerbread!

This Christmas I have someone special to spend it with. God-sent, truly. No matter how tough the going gets, he is always there to see it through with me. Someone special who loves me immensely and whom I love too. That's a rare gift I'll treasure with all I have. ♥

   

Waiting outside the lines

The boy's back from Cheenaland with gifts! The bear is really really adorable and he says its here to accompany me when he can't. Aww, plus the bear looks like him with the chocolate tan and all. He's really sweet to get me all the cute little gifts but the best one of them all, is him being safely home. :)

Its 5 days to Christmas! I'm barely feeling the festive season with my poor hoarse throat! My throat has never been so hoarse for so long. I want to enjoy all the yummy Christmas food! I need to feel the Christmas cheer... afterall its my favourite holiday of the year and I gotta wait another 365 days for this wonderful season after this has past. More Christmas songs and shopping perhaps!

I went walking aimlessly for about an hour yesterday, trying to sort my thoughts out after a very unhappy event. I tried answering the questions that kept whirling in my mind. Alas, I can't give a certain answer to those questions and put those nasty thoughts to rest. I wish I knew His bigger picture, His plan. But I know, right now, all I gotta do is to have faith. Lots of faith, and hope, that the voice in my head will be right.



 

Rocketeer

G's gonna be home tomorrow. I can't be anymore happier than I am now, except tomorrow at the airport! It really hasn't been easy without him here everyday. But his messages and emails keeps me going on, pushing on to every new day. When he's home, the Christmas mood is gonna start kicking in, for real!

On a side note... my study room has been in a perpetual mess. My parents are getting frustrated and frankly so am I. What they don't get is, the amount of time I'll need to organise it, and how pressurising me and threatening me to throw away everything, doesn't help. My house in the future is gonna have to be really organised (Think walk-in wardrobe style, I am so sick of the mess) and I'll have to try very hard to maintain it because if you don't know me very well, I am a organised mess kind of person and I have way too much of everything!


 

Female 50 Gorgeous people 2010

(Official pictures of 50 GP 2010 from Female Singapore & Asiaone.com)

This sums up my journey of being in Female 50 Gorgeous People 2010. I can't express how amazing this whole experience has been for me. Meeting new people, experiencing new things and gaining more exposure. Being on Razortv, going for the fittings, catwalk in public places, and getting into the top 10. It's predetermined by votes, so I really have to thank the people who voted for me!

My friends have been the best group of people I'd ever need in my life, constantly being there to show their support, and of course, voting for me and being there during the preview & finals to root for me. Despite having work, school, or even a flight to take the next day, they still turned up to attend the finals. Aww you guys really are the best! And lastly, my ever so supportive and loving boyfriend, who unfortunately couldn't turn up for the finals, but from the start gave his encouragement and neverending support to me. He mobilised people to vote for me, started posting on FB, bugged people to vote, went for the preview and got me a bouquet, and stood by me every step of this journey (cept the finals). I am really thankful and lucky to have found someone like him who's willing to go through life's ups and downs with. ♥




   

Tonight's the night

Today's the finals for the Female 50 Gorgeous people and I'm really hyped up for it! Though half my mind's working on how to get out of my current job which is really sucking my soul. It's not even a decision whether to stay, or not to stay. It's how to get out! I feel like because of this burden weighing down on me, I hardly have any mood for anything else. :( But its the finals, I've got to put this aside and be gorgeous tonight! Exciting! I really wish G can be here to see me tonight... I miss you dear.


 

Strength

I miss you already, and its been less than 3 hours since I've last saw you. I have 164 hours to go, minus 8  hours of sleep everyday, that will be 56 hours off, which gives me 108 hours of waking time without you. Its difficult for anyone to understand how its like in my shoes, especially to comprehend what we've been through. To have someone message me at the start of every day, to give me support and encouragement, telling me that I can do it, and take time off to give me something to look forward to at the end of every day, to let me come home to someone I love, and to a sanctuary where I know I'll be safe from the world. This is how I get by every tough day, this is how I ride out every problem in my life, how I endure all the shit that gets thrown in my way. He makes it all better for me. Simply by gently encouraging me, by letting me see the light at the end of the tunnel of every single thing. I have never been more thankful, more blessed, more loved than now. Now that you're away, I feel like I'm gonna have to be stronger than ever. Hurry home now love. Things are really not the same with you away...



 

Beauty and the Beast

There's a facebook anti-violence children campaign going on, and encouraged us to post our favourite childhood characters. And so, we are,

Beauty and the Beast!

My boyfriend is so sporty to agree to do it with me, and is simply, the, BEST.