Runaway.

I am never adequate.

A part, yet apart.

“You can never really know someone completely. That’s why it’s the most terrifying thing in the world, really - taking someone on faith, hoping they’ll take you on faith too. It’s such a precarious balance, It’s a wonder we do it at all.”

- Libba Bray

I feel like I really need a hug right about now. And not just any ordinary hug. A hug that assures that everything will be okay. A hug that says a million things silently. An embrace so warm, it takes my fears away. A hug that will cure. It's one of the extraordinary things on Earth that can achieve so much so easily.

 

I'd love for that

“Maybe that’s what it all comes down to. Love, not as a surge of passion, but as a choice to commit to something, someone, no matter what obstacles or temptations stand in the way. And maybe making that choice, again and again, day in and day out, year after year, says more about love than never having a choice to make at all.”

Emily Giffin (Love the One You’re With) 

Happy 1st month ♥

xoxo

Concrete jungles where dreams are made of.

“You see, you closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too — even when you’re in the dark. Even when you’re falling.”

I'm caught between the girl I want to be, and the girl I really am. I want to be strong, unbeatable, infallible, independent, and not let emotions rule over logic or try to affect me in any way. But I really am vulnerable, emotional, needy, insecure and your average girl next door. Despite it all, I am working towards who I want to be. The girl you see now definitely isn't the girl you knew from the past. But sometimes I wonder, why do I try so hard to not be human? Why am I trying so hard to not feel so much? It used to feel like its okay to be all that I really am, but it doesn't seem to be that way anymore.

When you're someone who tend to gravitate towards feeling a lot about things, you will always tend to let those feelings rule you. It becomes nasty, it attacks from the inside. The kind of pain that you can't do something about, simply because your heart is the one that's aching. Not that I don't feel such pain anymore, but rather, I try to let go of a lot of things that I abhor. 

 I've got to be better than this.

  

Let me lean on you

“All the hardest, coldest people you meet were once as soft as water. And that’s the tragedy of living.”

Sometimes I think I try to be too strong for my own good.