Chanel Chanel Chanel

How can you not love Chanel?

Nude is the new black

 

 Lust.

Saturdays never felt better

CNY with my Cousin and his number one love, the little lion!

FYP IS ALMOST OVER BABIES! :) 

I'm almost freeeee! Left with the EE critique next week, so come on bring on the dates/outings/get-togethers/chill-outs! Gotta save up to pay for the fun that I'm thoroughly deprived of ever since FYP started. No, scrap that word, it never falls through everytime. I need a job! Anyone?? :) :)

Played mahjong through the night with Matthew, his sisters and cousins. Pretty fun ehh, even though I lost a little $$, but all in the name of fun! Thank goodness we played small. Kinda getting the hang of it. Daddy woke me up early to open the door, UGH, hate people who wake me up unnecessarily because I absolutely can't fall back to sleep afterwards. :(

Thank you B, for sharing your lovely sisters and cousins with me! :D

Douchebag!!

I feel.

Like murdering someone.
Like slapping myself for being too nice.
That time should rewind so I can redo things and give you what you deserve.
Like ending FYP now.
Like not rushing to places to get materials again.

But this is the LAST submission. I should be happy and forget all wrongdoings, and get it over and done with. I don't care about being friends with people who take advantage of me and step all over me so you can do better. You don't deserve it, and this is the last straw. I won't be nice anymore.

Sorry the entries have gotten so emotional and depressing! A phrase that will soon pass.... and I have to start jotting my future graduation plans, which includes packing my terrible terrible study room! Usually I'm fine with my messy table, but now it's gotten way out of hand! TOMORROW MARKS THE END. STEADY, LET'S GO!



P.S. Thanks babes, for telling me all that, and being there for me. I know it's like I'm putting up a brave front, but just let me be, even when I fake being strong, I'll eventually be stronger. :) Thanks for all your loveeeee!

What do you want from me?

I'm at this all time low at this point of my life. Take away the smiley exterior, and what you get is a girl who's entirely disappointed with herself. It's hard for anyone, just simply anyone to understand what I am going through. It's like doing so much, stretching my potential, going all out to do your very best for the Final Year Project, and suddenly you realise "your best" is not good enough.

Yesterday, it was major crunch time. I was rushing to and fro, level 1 - 5, multi-tasking trying to complete all that I had to submit tomorrow. I had Matthew come and help me with the cutting of the mininature clothes for my model. When he saw me panicking and frantically trying to complete my work, he said to me, "What were you doing yesterday night?!" I nearly wanted to break down and cry and yell at him all at the same time.

No one really sees how hard you try. No one cares about how hard you've work, how much effort you've put in, how many meals you've missed because you've been working so hard, rushing to places. No one sees it. They care only about the end product. So if you screw that up, you're screwed. It doesn't justify how much you've done, the end product is not great and there goes your efforts and your marks. The world is that unfair.

So if the one closest to me can't even see how hard I've work, who would?

Hold on kittens.

The last of FYP. Will be back right after that!

Chasing cars.

Let me be.

Please, if anyone is reading this, please just let me whine and go on about how FYP sucks like crazy, and please just take it in for a while more because it's ending, I'm tired, I'm absolutely cracking under it all.

The girls, PW and Iris, thank you for being with me throughout the entire journey. Without you girls I would have gone off the radar, turned crazy under the intense pressure, and would never have made it through till today. Thanks for being the best people, who 100% understand what I'm going through. Right now, it really helps to have people around you to understand how horrid this is, and complain and whine together with you! Haha. Therapy indeed. :)

Call it intuition or what, but I really think everyone thinks I'm the bad guy. Maybe, I should wash my hands off your matters in future. What should I dooooo.

Hello hello baby, you called I can't hear a thing

Long cardigan from Robotninjas, Tube studded dress from Ohsofickle!

Love what I'm wearing today so I shall share! Hee.

+++ MY H&M NECKLACE! 

It totally went tgt with my black and gold tube dress. LOVE.

Happy holidays everyone! :)

R.I.P McQueen

R.I.P Alexander McQueen

Your contribution to the fashion is one that will remain deeply etched into the hearts of many.
The fashion world's loss of a great talent. Why does the good die young?

If I'd ever see you again

Sometimes there's no wrong in being afraid. Sometimes I wonder, what's ahead after I graduate. Study, work, or play. Well, omit the last option, or at least, until I get a job and some cash flow in my holey pockets! I was just thinking about this, especially after the career fair last Friday. What are the available job options for me? I admit, I am picky when I'm choosing a job. Simply because I know I can't and won't stick to one that wouldn't suit me. I don't see a point in finding a job I don't love, and find myself slogging and dragging myself to work everyday. The reason for me going to work, is because I want to, and not because I have to.

But in life, how many times do you find yourself getting such an opportunity of a lifetime? I love fashion, I love retail, and hate everything else. Haha! Namely, Visual Merchandising... It's not that bad actually. But working at Robinsons for my internship truly scarred me for life! All the manual labour (I mean SERIOUS MANUAL LABOUR), all the days in the scorching sun, dusty warehouse, OMG, NO WAY. Maybe a visual merchandiser for a stand alone boutique is worth considering.

I'm at this standstill point in life, at a point whereby the next step ahead is going to be a big leap, and I got to take the right leap because it's going to stay with me for at least a while, and I want to be happy making that leap. Right now there's so limited options available... I'm just really afraid of what's yet to come.

Right now, I've to leave everything in God's hands, and see where His plans will take me. 

Two is better than one.

“Love. It’s a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without.”

“That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time.”

— Drew Barrymore

Girl power!

To view more crazy pictures we took that night ----> http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=150850&id=727816853 

We finally had a mini gathering of the 4/8 girls! :) It's been so so long and it looks like no one really changed that much huh. Everyone's still as bubbly and giggly as ever. I really do miss 4/8! All the crazy times in class... memorable! It's a pity some people couldn't make it for the gathering this time... next time, when Chantel's back again, we should do a bigger meet up? I hope more people can come!

We had a simple meal, and it was actually my first time trying shisha! The different flavours are so cool. I really should try out the others. There's like bubblegum, grape, strawberry etc! Wow. Slow... I know. Heh. It was quite fun in the end. Caught up with each other, chatted about school, misc stuff, etc etc. Felt really nice to just chill and catch up!

xoxo

3 words, say it and I'm yours.

The one who makes you smile the widest, can also make you cry the hardest.

Sun-kissed

(Vogue Nippon March 2010)

Love everything about this shoot. From the Colors... nude beige white. Palette of the spring/summer! 

Materials... tulle, fur, ruffles, lace... to Anja Rubik! Inspiring.

If I just.

Sometimes in life you just want more.

Much more than what anyone could give.

Maybe its time I stop wanting more.

Maybe its time to give.

Monday blues, Tuesday cools.

Hair appointment with Matthew yesterday! I totally love Winnie (my hairstylist). She always knows what styles to cut for me, and even when I go for a fringe trim, I'm always satisfied with the fringe in the end. It's like she knows what suits me best! Been visiting them for a year or so now, and Matthew loves going to the same place too! 

Had a hair treatment and fringe cut done. OMG major love my hair now! It's so silky, soft, and shiny!! I'm loving the length of my fringe too! Haha I wish it can always stay this way! B's bangs are too short right now, but it looks like it'll be just nice for CNY. *coughs* small boy *coughs* Gah, I'll always look like an oldie standing right next to him. It's like why do all the boys have the baby faces?! Where's justice!

We ate the famous wanton noodles @ Far east and it's sooo shiok. Mmm hmm! :) Went shopping after din for B's new year's clothes and guess what (ho ho no surprise here), instead of him buying his clothes, I'm the one shopping and in the end, I bought a dress! I need some therapy for my over-indulgence, over shopping problem, srsly! :( 

Wokay, back 2 workkk now!