"It’s hard when we live in a world of opposites where no means yes and yes sometimes means maybe and suddenly all communication is lost because we don’t want to say what we really want to say because we’re afraid, too afraid of the hurt, the pain, the damage it may cause, and we leave when most of the time we want so badly to stay, stay, stay, convince me I should stay, don’t just let me walk away.. but we always do because the words somehow seem to get stuck in our throats and we choke on the idea that all we want is about to disappear and we choke on the tears we feel like we need to hold back in times like these, where we choose to do the opposite of what we want to in order to what’s best for us, what’s best for them, what’s best for both of us in the end.. which it often leaves us with what-if’s and i-wish-i-said’s and if-only’s and other regrets to live with and carry in the pockets of our heavy hearts. and there’s always a should-i-have, could-i-have, would-i-have in the back of our minds that we could never go back and do and it makes me wish that we knew better now than later to say what we meant, than to pretend we felt differently just because we were too scared to wear these hearts on our sleeves, even know i know living that way is a dangerous life to lead—sometimes I think it would make us a lot happier than anyone would believe."
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